everything, blurring together ep

by kqa

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i told you in a dream that im alright and you found me awake, fighting my demons that night will you let me know if they go i know with time things change but i cant wait or ill forget the pain i know we will both move on but if i stay just a little longer will i fall just please hold on hold on ooh, ooh, ooh ooh, ooh, ooh
2.
raindrops fall gray skies grow shadows tall not my own am i a ghost? am i a ghost? knock me out but ill phase through because im gone im sorry for your loss but im a ghost im a ghost but im still here im still here
3.
mmmm, mmmm, mmmm everything, blurring together days turn to weeks, i lose count sit down do your work, 10 minutes pass break time take 5, minutes i doubt getting through each day wont stop the growing mental pains tumbling down a spiral it feels like each day is worse but the same ooh everything, blurring together the colors all become the same trying to make new memories but all your attempts just fade getting through each day is killing me all the same waiting for something to change i might just fade away, too everything, blurring together everything, blurring together everything, blurring together everything, blurring together. ooh, ooh
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all the shit i always said i dont think before it leaves my head cause i dont think of consequences im always goin never endin its okay well make it through and i can sing this song to you cause you gotta have the confidence still think of me as your friend i know its hard to get my motives when i only show these short clips but if you read between the lines i think youll like what i disguised whoa, whoa, whoa look around say what you see and hear your voice talkin to me cause you gotta have some self awareness figure it out and process it its okay just take your time and soon enough youre next in line and then we can get this sorted out even if not your final bout i know its hard to get my motives when i only show these short clips but if you read between the lines i think youll like what i disguised ooh, ooh look back, process every single thought youve made today work on yourself before you blossom take one step and then the next dont forget that you need to blossom just to help those you love whoa, whoa

about

i think i see a lot of themes doubling down in who i am during quarantine

a lot of dwelling on past mistakes, sometimes literally every day
it feels like the battle between adhd and add gets stronger every day
self care being all over the place, hyperfixations...
dont even mention the existential crisis,
which im sure im not alone on -
put simply, i could continue for a while

but im trying to look back at what i can and fix it
im trying to fix the old mistakes,
whether years old or during quarantine,
to the best of my ability

trying to pave a better road for the future,
while tending to the past
all while everything is blurring together
trying to make sense of it all

so that when this is all over i can blossom

credits

released April 17, 2021

kqa is nicole di bisceglie

lead vocals on "hold on" by genatari
harmony vocals on "blossom" by impasaurus
all synths on "blossom" by sleepshopper

major thanks to the above three and many many more friends for listening along to all the iterations of what these songs would become. eli, stevie, im looking at you for the title track. strawflower squad, kaya, im looking at you for the others O_o and a final major shoutout once more to sara who edited an amazing music video of the title track <3 i know for a fact theres people im missing - theres so many of you all but youre all so appreciated :')

\.o./

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